I have felt the immense pressure to be “something” by a young age, for as long as I can remember. I’m not sure where the pressure came from, perhaps it’s just the first born syndrome. Needless to say the older I get, the more pressure I feel. Maybe I have wisdom beyond my years to make sure I start my life, career, journey on the right foot. (it’s what I tell myself, anyway)
In this pressure cooker I have placed myself, I’ve also become hyper-sensitive to opportunities that may lead to somewhat of a: money maker or b: career launcher. These opportunities are not always on point with how I see my life and interests colliding but I’ve desensitize myself in order to reach the goal of success. Like that of an overly-excited dog playing fetch and the cruel kid who pretends to throw the ball just to watch the dog run around looking for the ball, who then laughs when the dog realizes the ball was never tossed. I’ve ran after a few blind opportunities prematurely and once I’ve mentally committed to the venture I realize the missing factor is my heart and soul, my interests, living life, enjoying the ride and laughing along the way.
In an attempt to stop the overly-excited opportunity seeking ways of my past, I’ve been in search of a passion. The thing “that keeps me going when I don’t think I can keep going myself” and that will also keep me focused, helping guide me to choose opportunities that are the best fit. … *scratches head*…. well this idea was easier said than done. For the last 6 months I’ve been trying to understand what my passion is. The only thing that keeps me going is the idea of success. Could my passion be simply, to be successful? How shallow is that? But this thinking has got me going in the right direction:
First off, I have put a lot of thinking into money lately. Making sure my financials are in order and a good solid base to grow my future on. I feel this is essential to being successful.
Secondly, that of finishing my degree, possibly getting a masters and any other reputable certificates are the next tier on the road to success.
I figure, once I have these two key factors secure, the world will be mine! Having a solid financial state combined with a wicked education, moving anywhere for a promotion will feel like taking candy from a baby and be just as easy.
So with that stated… I’ve got my focus and it feels sooooo good to finally have a game plan that sounds successful!
